I am Adrianna

I’m not much of a writer, I’m constantly reading, and re-reading, to avoid judgment. I think that people are always judging me, everyone. I’m kind of shy, more than just ordinary shy. I like to be around people, but I’m normally the “silent observer.”

I think way too much before speaking, and for the most part it gets the best of me. And when I do speak, I over-analyze it. Replaying the conversation in my mind, thinking of what I could of said better.

Few people know the true me. I can count them on my hand. I’m not very confident in myself, and I feel like I’m missing out. I’m young, only 20, almost 21. I feel like I’m missing out on a life, because I surely don’t feel like I have one at the moment.

I feel as if I live through my friends. And for the most part, I feel like I’m a walking confessional to them. They constantly tell me about their life. I go out of my way to help my friends, acquaintances and even strangers. I’ll change my plans if I have to.

I hated leaving high school. By the end of it, I had good friends, a boyfriend, and tons of people looking up to me. It took me awhile, but by the end of high school, I was finally out of my shell.

And then college rolled around. Even though I am in my junior year, I still feel out of my element. At least I have my music. Music is my outlet, I could listen to music all day, no problem.

Adrianna